Well, what can I say? Life has given me a suprise at a time in my life where I am figuring out where to go and what do...where I belong. I graduated in April and have since tried to answer several important questions that I think many people happen upon when we find no answers right at hand. But along the way I have learned some very valued lessons.
At this point in time I am moving back in with my parents. Oh yes I have heard it all, "It is social suicide!", "How do you think you'll ever get married?" or "Don't you think you're too old to be living with your parents?". Let's be honest, that is what parents are for. They offer comfort and nurture us as their children, they love with out boundaries and in the end I know that my parents will always offer these to me.
I have prayed and fasted much concerning where I am supposed to be, not just location wise;). To be honest, I haven't received a straight forward answer. What I have learned from this experience is HUMILITY. It has been a very important lesson that I need in my life but also an extremely difficult one for me grasp. I have a hard time letting go and realizing that things are outside of my control and some times there really is nothing I can do. This is exactly what I need to do though.
I need to let go of my pride and be grateful for the many blessings I have and the many that are in store for me. I also need to realize that it may be my life temporarily but it was a gift given to me and because of this it isn't my time to live by but by His time.
Through many interviews and now at a time where a decision needs to be made, I have come to the conclusion that its not my decision to be made. Sometimes in life all we can do is hand everything over to the Lord and have faith in Him that gave us life. This is where humility has been learned on my end.
I know that in time, things will all fall in to place and I am so excited to see what it has in store for me. In the mean time, all I can do is but learn lifes most valuable lesson...HUMILITY.
